77/16 My Monologues & Musings : ( Lk 3:8)
“Produce fruit in keeping with repentance. the same……”
Dear Jesus,
These words of your cousin brother, JB do really challenge me!
Yes, I often do repent over my sins.
But do I produce fruit in keeping with my repentance.
Is my repentance real?
Does it last?
Or is it a mere ritualistic repentance?
Do I keep on committing the same evil?
Dear Jesus,
I am afraid:
It is often the same story,
It is the same script.
It is almost the same pattern of sinful ways,
Which I keep on repeating.
Though I do make strides,
Suddenly i find myself falling back.
The progress I make is minimal and slow!
Dear Jesus,
Looking back into nearly forty plus years of my priestly life I am aware:
My repentance is often short lived and brief.
Then I fall back into the same cesspool of sins, especially into the sins of thought.
Dear Jesus,
At times I am like a tree bearing no good fruit. Yet you have not cut me down and thrown into fire which you could have!
Thank you, Lord:
For your immense patience with me.
Thank you, Lord:
For granting me another lease of life.
Thank you, Lord:
For expectantly waiting for me to bear fruit.
Dear Jesus,
It makes me gratefully wondering at your
merciful and forgiving love waiting for my fruit bearing repentance!
I shall keep trying harder than ever before to offer you my fruit bearing repentance!
I know I am in the last lap of my life and don't have much time at hand!
Dear Jesus,
I bring before you:
Everyone of my loved ones.
Everyone of my enemies who were and are.
Everyone who loves as well as hates me.
Everyone whom I love and whom i hate.
Everyone who helps me and who don't.
Everyone whom i have lead astray.
Everyone who is sick and needs healing.
Everyone who is in despair and needs hope.
Every priest who is in need of prayers.
Everyone who has met with me!
Oh, Jesus, My Lord and My God,
I thank You,
I thank the Father,
I thank the Spirit,
For Your Unsolicited gift of life for me!
For Your Uncountable blessings for me!
For Your Unlimited Patience with me!
For Your Untold Forgiveness for me!
For Your Unflinching faith in me!
For Your Unfailing Hope in me!
For Your Unconditional Love of me!
Amen
JoAchen
Thursday, 17th March, 2016
These Reflections are neither pure scientific exegesis nor are they any highly theological explanations. They are a sort of devotional musings and monologues mainly meant for my personal renewal and spiritual growth. They are a part of my journaling as a Prodigal Priest trying to make my pilgrimage back to the Home of our Heavenly Father. As I keep holding you in my prayers and I request you to include me in yours. Thank you!
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